Hey all,

If you're interested I'm basically using this Journal to say that all requests/commissions/art trades etc have basically been cancelled.

If, in the odd circumstance that you've given me points before I've finished a point commission (I told every person to pay me if they thought it was worth it when finished, and about 2 people out of 20 paid) then tell me, and I'll give you your points back.

As for cash commissions, well, only one person thought I was good enough for that; and you will be refunded.

Requests and Art Trades wise, I apologise but at the moment there's no point of people even getting art from me.

So, a small explanation might be order. And it might explain my work's decline.

When I first joined DA about 2 or 3 years ago I did about five pictures for myself that I thought were worth uploading. They got a bit of attention, and I figured that opening requests would be the best way of getting some attention overall. So I did, and within a month I had about 40 pictures to do. This took me up until maybe half a year ago, and then like an idiot I opened them again. In succession I've managed to be drawing other peoples characters or fan art for about 3 years, and not even touched on my own work. My own work consists of 6-8 page manga submissions for a magazine that was but is now no longer running.

After drawing so many OC's and fan arts the enjoyment just kinda died for me. I'm not ashamed to say that its a little boring not being able to draw what you want, and being asked to draw something boring that you really can't be bothered to do. And then feeling like I had to out of either a sense of niceness, or even the farcical leverage of the DA point system, well I'm sure you can see for yourself; on the occasion where I do actually try hard on a picture; it still doesn't end up well.

My artwork has definitely declined, because I simply stopped caring what people thought. But at the same time, I don't want to draw for people who only *ask* or give me points, they're worth nothing to me, Cash commissions are seriously the only thing now I'd consider as worth my time. And I'm blatantly not even good enough for that.

Understand that not every picture I hated doing, a select few I enjoyed, but it became so mechanical that I lost all enjoyment.

So all I can do is stop, cancel everything and practice. Until I'm happy with my art the odds are I won't be uploading anything.
Complain if you like, but I don't owe anyone but myself anything.